Posts Tagged ‘beading’
How has winter been for you? We have had a massive amount of snow here and I for one will be glad when it gets warm enough that I can open up the windows and air out the house. Not to mention seeing the grass again! I am so used to spending at least one weekend a month out in nature, camping or hiking. Something where we can get out and stretch our legs a bit. Sadly we have been so sick the last two months that we have had to skip our nature weekends! I miss it terribly! I would love to get back out into the wilds and breathe deep. It’s so relaxing.
Despite the wave of illness that has kept me from heading outside, I have been able to work on several crafty things lately. If I can’t get outside, I might as well make the most of the time I spend inside! I figured I would share a few of the projects with you to let you know I am still alive and kicking. Life has been super busy here at The Jeweled Heron and once the sun returns I will take pictures of my new creations and post them in the store! As always if you see something you like, let me know.
Seeing as how I love lists, (Big shock coming from the girl who likes to organize her beads eh?) I am going to organize my thoughts into a nice list for you all.I finished organizing my beads! It was great! Then I found another hidden stash of beads that has yet to be organized by the new organizational system I am using. I’m not sad about this. I’m actually looking forward to trying to fit them in. Does that make me weird? I have finished another pendant. When I was working on this one I was certain I wouldn’t like it. However, now that it is done, I’m actually liking it quite a bit. I am going to do it in another color to see if I _actually_ like it or if it was just a fluke. Till then, here is a picture of it. I tried my hands at another pendant pattern and realized I actually DO hate it. I won’t be posting a picture of that one. Seriously, it’s terrible. I’m trying to figure out how to save it. The more I think about it, the more I want to tear it apart and use the beads for something else. Ugh. I finished a necklace and matching earrings! They were super fun, and made up for the last pendant’s disappointment. Every failure deserves a win. This duo is my win. I found a fun blog post about jewelry inspired by books. It was cute! You should check it out too. This blog is just one aspect of the Jeweled Heron’s public face. Don’t forget you can find me on Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram and Facebook too! They are a great way to keep up to date with what I am working on as I am working on them! You don’t have to wait for me to write up a formal blog post like you do here. Likes and comments remind me that I am not alone with my beady obsessions. *laughs* Just in case you missed it on the Facebook page. I love skulls. My little jewelry loving heart loves gemstones. You put the two together and I can’t help but want them all! Check out these amazing gemstone skulls! So realistic and so beautiful! I need to start a collection. *drools*
Welp! That is everything for now! I hope you folks have a great and crafty weekend!
One of the things I struggle with in my life is my need to help people. I have seen people suffer, I have felt suffering myself, and knowing how destructive it is, I have always strived to help people move beyond that suffering.
I had begun to work with beads very early in my life, my family is very artistic and my counselors encouraged me to seek emotional outlets in safe and healthy ways. Beads allowed me to work through my depressions and sort out my frustrations. The repetitive nature helped me to focus and calm down when things got too intense. I had worked my way through drawing comics to crochet and painting, but when it all comes down to it, it is the precision and color of beads that drew me to bead work. It allowed me to satisfy my need for ‘perfection’ by being perfect for me. You can count on the shapes of the beads and plan your pattern around them. All it takes is some thread and time and eventually you will have a thing of beauty.
The problem quickly became a question of how did creating jewelry help others? Let’s be honest it’s an expensive hobby and not nearly as important as food or shelter when it comes down to basic human needs. Many of the people I found myself surrounded by early in my life were struggling to make ends meet. They couldn’t buy jewelry and it was selfish to want something pretty when you had to save up just to pay rent. Believing I could make a living by creating jewelry was a dream that I couldn’t afford to strive for. So believing beads held no value for anyone but myself I pursued a career in the medical field. It fulfilled my need to help people, but at the expense of my own sanity. The hours were long, the work thankless and dirty. While I enjoyed helping people, I burnt out quickly.
I make jewelry because I have walked through darkness. I have felt despair like ice beneath my skin. Whether it be negative criticism about the quality of my work, or complaints about who I am ‘supposed’ to be or even the isolation of being in an abusive relationship. I have felt the deep depression of one who has spent way to much time staring into the abyss. I believed the lies that because I enjoyed girlie things I was lesser in some ways. I believed that by wanting beauty in my life I was selfish and greedy.
The thing about the abyss is once you are in ensconced in the darkness, it’s easy to remain there. It’s misery can be deceptively comfortable. The idea of hope suddenly becomes foolish because the bullies tell you it is. The darkness becomes your new accepted reality.
“Creating beauty isn’t helping people.”
I believed that for a very long time.
But for me making beautiful things allows me to drive away the sorrow and pain of daily life so that I can see that the world isn’t a horrible place. There is beauty still out there, there is still a reason to hope for the best, even if it is just for today, even if it is for just one, more, day.
If my jewelry can do that for me, then perhaps it can do that for others. If it gives even one other person the ability to hope for a better day, then surely that person sees it as helpful. Surely it can be their talisman for hope in a better life.
Through all my careers, through a failed marriage, through the ups and downs in life, beads have helped carry me over the troubled waters. They have become an armor I wear against the darkness, who’s hateful lies tell me that suffering is the only thing I can do in this life. It drives away the thought that being called ‘girly’ means you are weaker, dumber, or of less value, that seeking out positive things means you aren’t focused on ‘the reality of the world’ when, in fact, reality includes those positive things too. Creating jewelry, for me, drives away the thought that I am not good enough to be loved for who I am simply because I don’t meet some ephemeral set of societal ‘standards’. I wear jewelry because it makes me feel pretty in a world that says I am not pretty enough.
For me, life has gotten so much better. I have beauty I can wear on the outside that reminds me that it is the light that we have on the inside that makes us truly beautiful. I have someone who loves me to remind me that I had to love myself first. I have compassion for those who suffer because I have suffered and seek to ease their pain in the best way I can.
To you who read this I want you to know: It is not foolish to hope. No matter what society says, you don’t have to focus on the negativity in the world. Bad things happen, but they aren’t the ONLY things happening. Good works are going on all around you, they are just quieter and usually more humble. I want you to know that you are beautiful and it is okay to think yourself as such. Even if your hair isn’t the right color or your teeth don’t line up or your ‘too fat’ or you don’t make enough money. If you are constantly working on who you are as a person, your light will shine through.
In this world, hope is not a luxury we can take for granted.
And that, my friends, is why I create jewelry.
Because I make everything by hand you can order any of the pendants in my store in any color combination you choose! If you have a particular outfit that needs that perfect embellishment I can make sure that the colors are perfect! Feel free to drop me a line if you are interesting in discussing one to match your wardrobe!
Also, because I love you guys, here is a sneak peek at the new pendant style that is coming soon!